Today, well, today I was not mature or gentle with the little vonerables. Admittedly, they were irritating and not at all gentle with each other. Or with me. It seems the first week at school has been exhausting.
I felt so lousy as soon as they were in bed and the adrenalin was spent. But man! At the time it felt like all four were waging a merciless campaign to frustrate and upset me. Tomorrow I need to do some mending. To point out the difference between admonishing (which I do not apologize for and will certainly do again!) and venting and tell them I'm sorry for the latter.
The actual having of the kids - the fatigue, the overwhelmed-ness - tends to rob the enjoying of the kids, you know? If I could do it all again with lots of energy and much more wisdom I reckon I'd love a whole lot more of the parenting trip.
And you? Serious, what it's like for you?
